Connection to Magic? | Miscellaneous | Forums

I was reading some fanfiction recently that went into a great deal of detail about the magical theory of the fictional world it depicted.  Interesting stuff, if not really applicable to real life, and it got me thinking about real-world magical theory.

Anyway, one interesting thing that was brought up in the fiction was the idea of one's “connection to magic”.  In the fiction, one's connection to magic was represented in their mindscape as a well or fountain.  I don't know where the author got this, but there is some lore along these lines in various traditions so it's not too far out there.

These days, I can't say I visualize a specific connection between myself and magic very often.  That seems to create a duality that I don't really subscribe to anymore.  But when I first started working with energy, before I'd ever read much in the way of magical theory and long before I began to think of what I was doing as magic, I did: to me, it seemed like a glowing river of energy in the far back of my mind, with strands of energy of every different color flowing through it.

Later on, when I stopped using this visualization to access energy, I managed to convince myself that it hadn't really been my connection to magic I was working with.  I convinced myself that it had been external… that I was near a ley line and that was what I was perceiving.  Now, thinking back on it, I'm not as sure.

What about you?  How do you perceive your connection with magic?