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Ayaka Inu said:

For me it usually comes about seemingly second nature, but at other times it is hard to tell whether something is connected to my first life, or just coincidence.

*nods*. I guess for me, it’s hard to sense whether something is common or not, and whether certain preferences have their roots in my own personality/temperament or in an elven life. Out of curiosity, what are some of the things you’ve learned? 🙂

To summarize, it depends on the individual, and sometimes it can be obvious, other times cryptic.

Well, that’s kind of what I meant. I wonder if we would be surprised if we all saw ourselves clearly, if we saw our whole lives and their places in the larger “tapestry” of the universe. And I wonder how we can overcome some of the near-sightedness we’re all born with, expand our field of vision?

Ayaka Inu said:

I can't really say I do not have that nearsightedness, but for me… I have more knowledge of my first life than this one. If I try I can remember all of my first life, but as I said, I am sure I still have a great deal to learn. If anyone is interested, I am actually in the process of writing a fairly large documentation regarding my first life, although I have no idea were to publish it, but if anyone wants to read part of it, it is a short bibliography of my first life.

If it’s short enough, you could probably post it in your LiveJournal or something. If it’s more like an e-book, you could convert it to PDF and upload it to Scribd. *shrugs*. Have you ever considered having a look at the therian community? I’m sure they would be able to give you better feedback than I could, with something like that.

Also don't consider this to be me advertising, I just thought it would be valid, since it answers the question of what I have learned of my past.

Not at all. 🙂

A shame that skills from my first life do not transfer as easily as memories.

*nods*. I think we’d all like to recover certain things we’ve lost. If you don’t mind me asking, what were some of your skills? 🙂

Ayaka Inu said:

I was quite agile, in fact I was the only one who could catch my more mischievous
daughter (I had three pups), but I never really put that to major use,
and I was not very strong, still that agility granted much more freedom
than two legs could ever yield, so I miss that, but I was on my peoples
council as a negotiator, so I suppose that is somewhat transferable, although there is not much to negotiate.

I’m sorry, but I’m not sure if I fully understand all of the differences between White Wolves and modern wolves…did you live and hunt in packs? And if so, what was the purpose of a council?

Also on the subject of publishing, I have found deviantart to be sufficient and I took your advice and submitted a few pieces to therian groups there. So thanks.

Ah, deviantart…I’d forgotten about that. And it’s no problem. Again, I’m no expert on wolves, and you’re welcome to do whatever you feel most comfortable doing. 🙂

Ayaka Inu said:

White Wolves would technically be incorrect, I just use the term because we looked like wolves with white fur, and our language would not be possible with any form of writing or typing, as it was never a written one. We were a sentient species of wolves, but the council, along with the more complicated subject of how we existed in this plane is difficult to explain in one post, which is why I was publishing writings.

Thank you for sharing them with us.

Once again not advertising just valid: http://ayakainu.deviantart.com…..y/30305606 contains all the current documentation. There are still blanks to fill in, either from one or to memories that have been repressed or more documentation on one more wolf I was close to (more than just close actually).

*nods*. Mine are mostly repressed; I just have “residues” of memories, so to speak, which help guide me towards what feels right. Since you remember so much of your first life, have you found an effective method for working through amnesia, that you can call upon?

Jarandhel Dreamsinger said:

For me, that's one of the things I find memory-work useful for.  If something from this life was not a big part of my life then, nor of the culture I remember, then it's pretty unlikely to be a trait associated with that aspect of my otherness.

*nods*. I guess what it really comes down to is accepting what you can’t change without memories.